Hue and Saturation

Hi Im not on a hundred percent these days. People say whatever choice you made, there is always sth to be sacrificed.Now it just came through my mind, did all of this worth it? Yes I love it,I have fun and learn so much while working on it, but now it all seems a lil bit useless (?). Im scared what's on my mind will proven to be true. Is this how everything works in society?
My journals are balanced, but I started to feel my life aren't.All of my time, friendships,energy, and myself everything just doesn't feel right anymore. I wish there's a guide book on telling me what and how to do the right thing in any conditions.